Tony again surveyed the view from up here. It was really something. It was getting dusk, and the lights were coming on all over Bulworth Town. Quite a sight, he thought. He wondered to himself why he hadn’t checked this spot out before. It was probably because he had so much on his mind these days.
It was sure peaceful up here. It was so high up that he could just hear the wind whispering by. The people walking below kinda looked like bugs, just making their way from this place to that place. From up here, one would never think that trouble would come to such an apparently peaceful place, ringed all about with these high mountains.
Tony hadn’t gone back to school on this Friday. He wasn’t ready just yet to face Karen, afraid the guilt would show on his face. Girls were real intuitive about things, at least he had been told. But what did he know ? He was still young. All he knew was that he wasn’t. Intuitive, that was. But what guy was, when it came to matters of the heart ?
“Quite a view up here, ain’t it ?”, a voice said from off to his left. Startled, Tony whirled around with fists clenched, ready to fight. But it was just Jimmy Hopkins, making his way up the ladder and turning to face him.
Tony relaxed. “Whoa, you kinda put a scare into me there. I thought....Well, I don’t know what I thought.”
Jimmy laughed. “It was probably my Incognito Hat”, he said, pointing to the strange-looking thing on his head. Tony looked at it in the gathering gloom, and his eyes seemed drawn to it, distorting Jimmy’s features. Tony shook his head to clear the odd vision. Jimmy laughed again.
Huh....I can see why it’s called that”, Tony said. “Some trick. What’chu doing up here, anyway ?”
“I could ask you the same”, Jimmy said, “‘Cept I probably know. Things just gettin’ too much for you, right ?” Jimmy turned and took in the view. “I used to come up here a lot. Nobody bothers you up here, and you can have a place to think. And boy, did I ever need a place to think sometimes”, he sighed. “A Lot.”
Before Tony could think of anything to say, Jimmy went on. “Then I ruined it by putting up that Tag.” Jimmy pointed upwards, under the huge clock face of the Clock Tower, where the remainder of the spray-painted tag still was visible. It read “BULLWORTHLESS” in large pinkish letters. “It was red when I sprayed that there, just over a year ago. I used a special luminous permanent paint to put that down. Guess it didn’t clean off too well.”
Tony looked up and could see it. Unlike the area where he stood, which had several feet of space and a groin-high railing around it, there was only a narrow ledge under the clock face that could be stood on. It could be accessed by a small ladder, Tony saw, about 20 feet in height. It must have taken awhile to lay down a tag like that, having to stand so close to the wall of the Clock Tower, where just one step backwards would send one pitching to the pavement below.
Jimmy continued. “I was real stupid, doing that. I let Derby Harrington goad me into that, like a fuckin’ Idiot. Pete tried to stop me, but I just wouldn’t listen. When I finally got back to school that night, all hell had broke loose. Gary had somehow got the Nerds to set the Gym on fire, and then somehow set loose crates of Rats in the Library. It just got worse from there. Everybody blamed me for what was happening, and finally I got expelled. Gary took over then, and whipped up everyone into a frenzy. Soon, there was a big free-for-all going on. Johnny went nuts and the Greasers were trying to take over the Girl’s Dorm, Ted and the Jocks were trashing the Library, and the Nerds were setting fires in the Gym again. The whole place was at war with itself. The Bullies were just running around in the mayhem. All except Russell, that is...He was helping me, and I got the Townies to come along to help restore order....”
Jimmy trailed off. Tony asked, “What about the Preps ?”
“That’s the strange thing....They weren’t really doing anything, just hanging outside Harrington House, Partying....Watching it all go down and being full of themselves....Like.....” Jimmy shook his head. “Almost like....Like they KNEW what was going down, somehow, like it was....Part of a plan, or something.” Jimmy’s brow furrowed. “Anyway, I had to fight them too, along with everyone else, before that last big fight with Gary. Which wasn’t much of a fight, anyway. If I had him in the Hole, it woulda been over in less than a minute, he was such a pussy.”
Tony listened to what Jimmy had said, and in the silence that followed, a germ of an idea began to form in the back of his mind. But it was just that, a small gem of a revelation that maybe he couldn’t make the connection to just yet. Jimmy finally said, “I haven’t been up here since. But I thought you might be.” He turned towards Tony and grinned. “Your girl is worried about you, and she came to ask me to track you down. She wants to know you’re alright.”
Tony groaned. Karen ! He ought to have known that Karen would have been suspicious of that little namby-pamby note he had left with Nick in the Dorm. She wouldn’t be fooled for long with that, she was too smart of a girl. What had he been thinking ? That was just it, he hadn’t. Tony backed up and slumped down against the Courthouse wall.
Jimmy was taken aback by Tony’s reaction. “Whassa matter ? Something you ain’t telling me ?”
Tony looked up miserably at Jimmy.....Jimmy who trusted him, Jimmy who was placing his very life in his hands. If he couldn’t trust Jimmy with his horrible burden, who could he trust ? Tony took a deep breath and said, “It’s.....Pinky. I had sex with Pinky. Again.”
“Man, oh man”, Jimmy said, “No wonder you took a powder !”
“Yeah”, Tony said. “Thing is....I can’t be alone with her. She just....Overpowers you. I just couldn’t help myself.”
“Boy, you and me both”, Jimmy replied with and odd glance.
“What ?”, Tony said, surprised. “You done Pinky while....When....”
“When I was with Zoe ?”, Jimmy said. “Sure. I was bangin’ her over last summer. And you’re right. The bitch just does somethin’ to a guy. Makes you crazy.”
“But...But....That’s Cheating !!”, Tony exclaimed. “Don’t that bother you ??”
“Well....Not really”, Jimmy said. Seeing the look of disbelief on Tony’s face, he said, “Look, I had sex with Pinky, and Lola, and Mandy, before I ever even met Zoe. Now, Mandy is a stuck-up bitch who would deny that ever happened, and in fact it was just once, thank-you sex for painting over them naked posters and all...” (Ones he had taken the pictures for and gave them to Earnest, he neglected to add), “....But Pinky and Lola, well, they’re just sluts who can’t get enough. One rich, one poor, it don’t matter. Pinky would run me down wherever she could find me, or lure me, and Lola was just so busted up about Johnny leaving her that she was screwin’ everybody.”
“I don’t understand”, Tony said in shock. “You didn’t feel bad ?”
It didn’t matter, not to me, cause it was just sex, it wasn’t love like me and Zoe came to have”, Jimmy said, attempting to explain. “Me and Zoe were just hangin’ until near the end of school, we weren’t a real BF and GF until I beat Gary. Then, you know, I never had a real Girlfriend before, so I didn’t know how serious she was about it.”
“So....Just when did it get serious ?”, Tony asked, “I mean, for you ?”
Jimmy thought. “I guess I’d have to say....When you brought her to the secret cave, and I saw how much she had pined for me while I was gone all them months. It was right then and there I knew that girl really loved me.”
“But”, Tony moaned, “I cheated on Karen while I was with her....Three times now.....”
“Three times ?” Jimmy asked, mystified.
“Once with Lola, before she left”, Tony said in a low voice.
“Huh, no shit ?”, Jimmy said with a laugh. “Well, tell me something. Did you come on to either one of them, go after them, just to screw them ?”
“No !!!!”, Tony said emphatically. “It was just....I was alone with them.....”
“And they came on to you”, Jimmy finished. “Isn’t that right ?”
“Ehhh...Yeah, sort of”, Tony said. “Damnit, you know how they are !!”
“So I do”, Jimmy said. “So I do. And you’ve gotta stop beating yourself up over it, over something you can’t control. We’re just teenagers, yah know, we get hard for most anything. And when someone comes on to us, It’s not our fault. It’s life, man.”
“I should be able to control myself”, Tony said stubbornly. “It’s just not right.”
“Why, you some kinda Superboy, a fuckin’ King Arthur or something ?”, Jimmy said in an almost jeering voice. “You’re Human, just like the rest of us. You’re gonna make mistakes that are outta your control in certain situations. You just gotta learn from them and move on.”
“Just how do I do that”, Tony said miserably, “When I feel like this ? It’s tearing me up.”
“Simple”, Jimmy said. “Don’t ever, NEVER, be alone with Pinky anymore.”
“But....What if she threatens to tell ?”, Tony asked. “What if it gets out, and Karen finds out ?”
“Psssh”, Jimmy said. “Pinky is just a puppetmaster, likes to play off boys against each other. She won’t tell, she’ll loose her power over you if she does. Besides, Karen would half-kill her, and she’s not dumb enough not to know that. As for Lola, she’s gone, so she won’t be tellin’ anybody.”
“But still....”, Tony said doubtfully.
“But nothing”, Jimmy said. “Look, you saved Karen from gettin’ blown to bits, right ?”
“In the bombings ?”, Tony said. “Sure, I did....”
“And, you’d do anything to keep her from getting hurt, right ?”, Jimmy persisted.
“Well, Sure, of Course !” Tony exclaimed.
“Then, you got to protect her from gettin’ Mental hurt too”, Jimmy said. “You being tore up, and needed to tell someone, that’s fine. You just told me, and that’s enough. It’s gonna HAVE to be enough. Protect her from that hurt by keeping this to yourself. Don’t let her see it, ever.
“So...You’re saying...I should clam up ?”, Tony said, beginning to see Jimmy’s point.
“To protect Karen, that’s what you gotta do”, Jimmy said. “You gotta carry this to keep her from gettin’ hurt. Simple as that.”
Tony thought for a moment, then nodded. “You’re right. That’s just what I’m gonna do.”
“Atta Boy”, Jimmy said. “But one thing....What am I gonna tell her where you been the past two days ?”
“Oh...Well, I actually did do something”, Tony said, and then proceeded to tell Jimmy of his venture over to the Graveyard and his encounter with Sheldon, and finding out about the device there.
“Huh, dig that”, Jimmy said. “I saw that little twerp there quite a few times myself.
“Yeah, but now I’m sure Damon didn’t just vanish from some kind of hocus-pocus”, Tony said. “Someone had to take him. But where ?”
“Maybe”, Jimmy mulled, “Back to the Asylum again ?”
Tony slapped his head. “I didn’t think of that ! Of course !”
Jimmy snickered. “Looks like I’ll have to mount another rescue operation. But not like last time. Low key. One-man operation. I’ll work it out, and let you know when.”
“Sounds good”, Tony said. “Sure knows I got a lot to deal with yet. And, I’m still waiting to see what Jake has in store for us. Only a couple weeks of school left. He’s bound to make his move soon.”
“Welp, I can tell Karen you been looking for Damon, then”, Jimmy said, heading for the ladder. You coming back tonight ?”
Tony debated. He DID need just a little more time. “Naw....Just tell Karen to meet me by the bike garage at Noon”, he said. “We got some bike races to win.”
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