I have tried but due to the way my mind works anymore....I am just happier being kept extremely busy. There are a lot of very personal reasons why I stay busy like this and maybe one day I will explain why in the proper place here
but for now lets just say taht as I work on several things at once....I usually find somthing else that I instantly need to check out before I lose the thought to do it.
It is somthing I really can't explain to anyone here easily since noone really would understand. But one day I will explain things via pm to a few here to explain why I take on such a seemingly impossible level of work.